For the past week or so, I've been praying and waiting for clarity. In these times of emotional purgatory, I tend to exist outside of the present, still addicted as I am to the demons of Worry and Guilt. Each step ahead in faith leads to sacrifices, and moments of clarity lead us into the unknown. And, often the winds of change are bittersweet.
But, here it is - my update.
(And this I type, and plan for, be it God's will.)
May will be the last month I will be nanny for these lovely children I have been following around for what will be 2 1/2 of their almost 3 years of life.
Then, for a week Phil and I will go on a modified survival camping trip, accompanied by some friends. We'll practice and learn.
For June I will work under sun and clouds, alongside Phil, doing landscaping or nursery work. I'm looking forward to the excercise and fresh air and plants galore.
Then in July I will be a part of the Primitive Pursuits staff. I feel deeply honored by this opportunity to run around the woods with kids and practice fire-making and learn awareness together.
So there's excitement and uncertainty, leaving some people I love to do some things that I love.
This is such a tiny crumb of all that has been percolating in my head, but it is also such a relief to have the choices now made, and the plans as official as they can get.